anxiety ~

hey guys and welcome to todays blog post.
Today I wanted to talk about anxiety.

anxiety is a natural feeling to all human beings, however sometimes it can be toxic and harming our mental health. people need to understand that having anxiety doesn’t make you abnormal, or different- it’s just a stage in your life where you feel over stressed with your life issues or problems, which is inevitable.

The first thing about anxiety is that you can’t CTRL-Z delete anxiety from your life. It’s not like that. It’s like a quote, ‘you can’t choose the cards you’re given, but you can choose how you play them’. So, you have anxiety. You’re stressed, and you feel worried. The first thing you need to do is understand your anxiety and why it’s there. So, write it down. Let your thoughts escape your mind and travel onto paper, and be there instead. Take light, slow-paced breaths and believe its all going to be okay, because it is.

Sometimes I feel so stressed and upset in the night, and I wake up and even though things are the same as they were yesterday, its all okay and maybe things are bad, but that doesn’t make my whole life bad. It’s just a phase, even if it happens a lot- its temporary.

After you’ve expressed your worries on paper, examine them. Are they productive? can you solve them? understand if you can deal with it or if you can’t. if you can’t solve your worry, or you can’t do it at that time, or it’s a very long-term process, get it off your mind by doing something to pass the time. or something you enjoy.

next, consider your anxiety. What’s the worst that can happen? think about it. You’ll be embarrassed? you’ll feel awkward temporarily? what is the worst that can happen and what are you afraid of?

Another crucial aspect of anxiety is cognitive distortion. This is when your mind convinces you something that is not actually true. This is like when you lose one friend and you think no one wants you. Always see situations as what they are, not what they potentially could be, don’t assume that a situation could be as such if you’re not certain, because it will only increase your anxiety.

The next step is to control your anxiety. Take care of yourself; sleep, meditate, eat healthy food, exercise and do what makes you happy πŸ™‚
deep-breathing exercises, yoga and meditation all help massively with anxiety.

I hope this helped those of you who suffer from anxiety. Remember, having anxiety doesn’t disconnect you or make you different from the world, it’s just an inevitable part of life. You just have to learn to deal with it, and when it comes back, let it go.

Thanks for reading, and feel free to comment any thoughts on the post below…. it took agesssssss : )

mvrrxo πŸ™‚

Corona-virus: everything we know so far about staying safe

As I’m sure everyone is aware- the world is undergoing a thorough, harsh pandemic. Although we don’t know the ins and outs, it’s crucial we use everything we currently do know to our advantage in order to stay safe.

Although majority of countries are in lock down, majority of countries will have differing legislation regarding leaving your home.

After some concise research I’ve concluded a few points we all need to be aware of.

Hand-washing and hand sanitiser has been heavily emphasised in my country as it kills germs.

Here are a few points:

  • Always carry hand-sanitiser for when you are travelling ANYWHERE. Use it when you touch something that it’s very likely others have. This could be in the tube, buses, in grocery stores,or even doorbells.
  • Try to carry a bar of soap with you for soap is a lot more effective in killing germs.
  • Wash your hands as soon as you enter the house, and just before you leave. As well as if you are at home, every 2-3 hours try washing your hands for 20 seconds at least.
  • Wearing gloves when going outside is very useful as transmission is very common through touching objects.
  • Don’t think you are safe because you are self-isolating at home. The corona virus can stay on a cardboard box for up to 24 hours (like when you get delivery) and 3 days on plastic bottles
  • When you cough or sneeze, try to use a tissue if there are any at first-hand.
  • If you are unable to use a tissue, use your sleeve.
  • Face-masks are not scientifically proven as effective, however its better not to take chances! also you could even be protecting others from yourself too.

I hope you found this information useful.
feel free to comment any feedback.

acceptance// thought of the day/3

today’s post is about acceptance of life, more on the ‘it is what it is’ mindset.

When you say ‘it is what it is’ it doesn’t always have negative connotations, and doesn’t necessarily mean ‘your life is what it is so your stuck with it’. No, sometimes it can mean ‘this is your life. now choose what you want to do with it’
When you see that there are a lot of successful famous people who have come out of a tough situation, you might think ‘they didn’t choose to accept’. In essence, they actually did. They chose to accept their situation and realise what it is, then work around it to change it. And anyone can do that. But first you need to accept.

Nobody chooses to be wealthy or in poverty. However if you asked a man in poverty, ‘if you could be affluent, would you be?’ he would probably say yes. And if you asked a wealthy man if he would like to be middle-class instead of having to put up with the millions of standards higher class have, he might say yes too.
Nobody knows what its like to be in a situation until they have experienced it.

‘We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand’ -Randy Pausch

perception// thought of the day /2

hey guys this post is about perception.

20% of our day is what happens to us and 80% of our day is how we react to it.
When you are told something, advised something, or even given something, we all react in a certain way that affects how everything else goes.
I really think its amazing how perception in our head (little ideas on how we feel about something) affect our entire life and other people.

Thats it for today’s thought of the day. if you guys have any feedback feel free to comment below- and follow my blog!

thanks -MXRRYX

a new day: Thoughts of the Day /1

a few months back i did a short thoughts of the day series, in which i wrote 5 different posts on 5 different thoughts of mine. This is a new series in which i’ll be doing the same thing.

Today’s post is about a new day.
People refer to new days as a fresh start, a new beginning and a new rich opportunity to do something great. There is this famous video about a successful man who would always start his day by making his bed.
The reason why he did this is because when you start by doing something great, it just leads you on to doing many other great things, and almost inspires you.

New days are new beginnings. Yesterday you didn’t do what you did today, and so on. New days mark new friendships and formation of bonds. New days are the base of new memories.

So negatively starting your new day will impact the rest of your day.
Think of it like a fresh start, and a chance to be greater than you were yesterday.

where is humanity?

with the whole corona virus pandemic everyone is stressing and overbuying. i get that everyone is really worried and not sure what’s to happen next. With self-isolation on the rise, and high probability of a lock down in UK, people are nonsensically buying so much groceries.

Firstly, with a lock-down, do you think the government will force every citizen to starve and not provide a food service?
The excuse of people stocking up is the corona virus, but if you even cared about the virus you should understand that people who need the food and supplies the most are becoming deprived.
The elderly, who are meant to self-isolate do not have food to self-isolate. The NHS staff who are meant to be supporting patients in this pandemic are unable to do their weekly shopping because at the time shops open they are working to save lives.
Imagine working all day and going to the store just to buy something for dinner because you’re tired, and seeing empty shelves and having to go home empty-handed, as well as seeing a young woman with two aisles full of food, and you couldn’t even manage to get a packet of bread because you were busy working when the stores opened.
People are literally taking trolleys full of toilet paper, and another trolley with bread and long-life milk. In supermarkets with food restrictions in which you can only get 1 toilet paper packet per person, people take their family members in order to successfully stock up.
This is totally unnecessary and it needs to stop.
Yes, we are under a crisis and Yes, we are under a pandemic. This is a time where people need each-other most.
By hoarding anti-bacterial gels, others wont get bacteria-free hands and that could even put you in danger anyway.

Before you go to the shops, think about what you’re about to do.
When you take the last milk from the shelf, and you see an elderly lady walk into the aisle, ask her if she needs it. People need support during this time, not extra stress.

Think about everyone. This world has people. We have to care about each other more.

how to cry on the spot

this is such a weird post lmao but hereeee we go.
so ive been researching a bit and found a few ways to cry on the spot and i can already cry on the spot personally so ive mixmatched the tips i guess lol.

  1. think about something sad
    sometimes im thinking of storylines for a novel im writing and tears just drop from my face because its so sad. its like im imagining what the character is going through. so if you think of something sad (we all have something personal) then just try to expand your thoughts. and just flipping cry. creating sad stories in your head literally just makes it happen.
  2. try to stare/make your eyes water or even look in a light (if ur eyes go bad dont mention my name please)
  3. do everything you would do if you were crying; make your face a little upset, and breathe with sniffles. if you cover ur face its more realistic.

and thats all- if it helps then good but idk if it will lmao. let me know xd

dealing with jealousy

hey guys and today’s blog post is a little bit of a follow up to my previous post: envy Today we’re talking about jealousy.
Now… jealousy is inevitable in every human being; but what makes every person different is how they deal with it. So some people are no longer jealous because they’ve learnt to conquer and deal with it, or some people conceal their jealousy.
I’ll be talking briefly about jealousy and dealing with it in this post- i hope it helps.

When i was looking at jealousy on the internet, i found that it causes so many things. There was a news report 3 hours ago about a murder incident sprouted by jealousy- there was another report about a celebrity who unfollowed another celebrity just because she became successful in the same position. The point here being is that jealousy consumes us, and causes us to constantly think about what someone else has rather than what we have.

What is jealousy? according to psychologists jealousy makes us feel abandonment, humiliation and rage. Jealousy is understandable because its almost as if you feel threatened by something someone else has, be it materialistic or even a friend/person in their life. You need to understand and resonate with your jealousy in order to conquer it.

Firstly, work on your self-confidence/self-esteem. Make yourself feel good about yourself. Do something that you feel is an accomplishment, make yourself proud. That way you wont find yourself threatened by other people.
That’s a good starting point to lay off from.
When you’re jealous the best way to improve is to improve your life situation is to make yourself a more overall happy person.
So if you’re jealous that you’re friend is continuously hanging out with other people and ignoring you then try making new friends- if you’re jealous your friend does so well in her studies, try doing well in yours.

if you guys want me to do a follow up or a more in depth post then comment below!
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how to stop being envious

today im talking about something that… lets be honest, we all know about. yes, you read from the title- envy.
i know someone and when they had something i just had this gut feeling. i didn’t want it, i just didn’t want them to have it. It was like I personally decided they didn’t deserve it, even though i was just being envious.

People dont like to accept the fact they’re envious and i hate to accept that I was. Envy is a natural feeling, but how do we overcome it?

You don’t often see happy or successful people being envious because they’re focused on themselves!

So here’s a few thing that literally exits envy if thats a thing lol.

  1. Be happy for them
    WAIT WHAT THE HE-. yussir, you gotta be happy for the bro. i know thats so toxic but youve got to appreciate they deserve what they got, maybe you don’t know but theyve had a really bad time and what they got just made them feel so much better, or they worked really hard for it. Maybe you think you know the entire behind the scenes but maybe thinking you’re a know it all is the root problem.
  2. Work on yourself.
    YOU,YOU,YOU. THATS ALL THATS IMPORTANT. Maybe you cant have what they have but your goal shouldn’t be to be better than other people but it should be from who you used to be.
  3. Feel gratitude
    this is so important. you will feel so much more better and wont be unhappy for someone else when they have something you dont when you are happy with what you have.
  4. accept it is what it is
    i know its hard to accept reality but you need to understand that some things are just that way and the other person would probably like something from your life but you’re unaware. sometimes its even small. in life no one has everything. yeah maybe she’s smart, rich and pretty but she’s a toxic person and doesn’t have many friends. or maybe she has all that but she doesn’t get attention from her parents. the point here is you dont know the ins and outs of everyones lives.
  5. be positive and avoid things that are negative
    when i quit social media it was daunting but now i think about it my life is so much better and less toxic. things like toxic friends are really hard to deal with and to be honest just avoid any negative input in your life- whatever it may be. and try to have a stress-free positive day. wake up and have a full you-day, just focus on your happiness and don’t let it revolve around anyone else.

Lastly, don’t feel terrible for being envious. just work on it!

Clear-skin tips

hello guys and welcome to a new blog post!
today’s blog post is about having clear skin and reducing the amount of spots you have.
Disclaimer: im not trying to say i have AMAZING skin or anything but i generally have some tips that ive seen help others and myself clear out your skin! hopefully they help.

  1. Skincare+Skin Care Regime
    LOOK AFTER your skin! don’t let it get dry- always moisturise when your face feels dry, and wash your face every morning and night. Always ensure that you have taken your makeup off. Exfoliation, scrubs and face masks are all compulsory in the world of having nice skin. You have to look after it if you want it to be nice! The products i use are:
    -Coconut Oil to moisturise gently, almost like a serum. You can use this as a primary moisturiser.
    -To remove my makeup i use coconut oil, and gently remove with cotton pads, and sometimes i use a Dr organic aloe Vera makeup remover with a cotton pad too.
    -Use a GOOD moisturiser.
    At the moment im just moisturising with olive or coconut oil since i prefer it over creams, but here are some good creams i have used:
    -WELEDA Skin Food LIGHT (make sure its ‘LIGHT’ because the other one is for the body and the LIGHT one is specifically for your face and other sensitive areas like your hands)
    -Dr organic dragon’s blood anti-ageing moisturiser- this cream is more for mature skin which is why i stopped using it, but its got an amazing texture and i really love this product.
    -Normal NIVEA lotions.
    *make sure you totally avoid scented lotions or chemical-based products, especially on your face*
    -Face Cleansers:
    -Beauty Kitchen Raw Inventions Loadsa Honey Face Wash
    i use a konjac sponge with this face washes!
    -Dermalogica microfoliant
    -The Body Shop face masks (i use the charcoal and rose one)
    -I use a natural based exfoliating powder that you use a drop of water in and place on your face, then you scrub it off to reveal fresh looking skin.
  2. Lips
    -Always keep your lips moisturised
    -Use your toothbrush on your lips 1-2x a day:
    *some people say for 30 seconds
    *some people recommend doing it once
    -Try not to use carmex as it damages your lips (look it up)
    -use natural lip balms
    -don’t use lip-gloss to moisturise your lips because it makes them even more dry
  3. Eyes
    Grow your eyebrows longer by using natural oils- i use castor but you can find other oils that suit you better if you like.
    Your eyelashes- use an oil! i also use castor oil and it does help a lot.
    There is grapeseed, olive, and almond oil.
    -Moisturise your eyes too!
    -i use eye cream sometimes if im bored – its by Bobbi Brown.
    tbh eye cream isn’t that important in my opinion.
    -try to get 8-10 hours of sleep to reduce under-eye circles and eat plenty of protein.
  4. General tips
    -Don’t pick spots, i know its hard but you have to resist.
    -Place aloe Vera gel from shops or from a plant on your acne/spots.
    -Use skin food when a rash breaks out.

I hope you guys find this blog post useful- it took ages lol.

welcome to my blog (relaunch 2020)

For many years, I’ve always wanted to write something with a purpose. Writing stories with fairy-tale endings just never quite made the cut, and it wasn’t real. Sure, every fairy-tale would have an amazing ending, but it would just layer a dream and sugar-coat reality. I’ve always wanted to write a blog with the hope of someone else reading it, and this time, the person is me. The truth is, everyone goes through particular moments and circumstances in their lives that shape who they are. People go through things and it changes them as a person.

My blog is about thoughts and feelings that massively impacted my life because no one deserves to go through harm alone. Sure, I’m not physically by your side, by I consent that this blog is directed to you, and anyone else in the world that has gone through massive changes and troubles/hardships in their lives. I created this blog because I feel like if I had something to read that I could ever understand or relate to, and maybe make me realise that no one has a perfect life, then id feel a hell lot better.

Moreover, it covers how I dealt with problems that I was faced with, and things I could’ve done better.

This blog is sincerely dedicated to myself, and those who go through similar or even any hardship in their lives- which is inevitable- and I want everyone to know that everyone has bad days, and no one is happy all the time, even if they pretend to be.

its going to be ok.

people who go through tough times in their lives aren’t failures or people with unjust lives, they’re fighters. they’re survivors.

people who cry aren’t weak, they’ve just been strong for too long and they’ve taken too much. its ok to cry sometimes. its ok to be sad.

put your hand on your heart and feel the quiet, soft thumping. feel the blood rushing to your body. feel how it feels to be alive. and then close your eyes. and breathe. breathe. and breathe. and believe its all going to be Okay. even if you don’t think it will- hope it will; believe it will.

whatever happened, happened. yes, its impacting your life- but that doesn’t matter right now. people will talk- they will always talk- so its upto you what you want to do- get back up, or stay down when someones pushed you?

you have to believe in yourself. because when you’re all alone, and its 3 AM and you’re sitting there crying, who is going to pick you up? who is going to make you feel better? you.

when you’re sad you always think of everything bad in your life. its like a build up of emotion. you can be happy and sad, but you can never be sad and happy.

people overthink because they care too much about what others think. we figure things out by living. we live through experiences and learn from them, if you look to a few years ago, the kinda crap you were facing that you thought was hell is NOTHING compared to what you’re going through right now. you live and you grow. you live and you learn. just trust life and know things are how they’re meant to be. everything will work out the way its supposed to be. it always does. and we’re not in control anyway.

mistakes don’t define us

hey guys c: havent posted THATTTT much but we getting in the flow (who am i lying to lmao).

okay so on a fr note.. we have a like… motivational post. because im motivational uno. yeah. um yeAH.

mistakes don’t define us. me. and you. mistakes aren’t who we are. what we’re like.
even if no one else tells you this, you have the power to decide who you are and what you want to be, or who you would like to be defined as.
only you know who you really are, what you really do, and how you feel about not some, but every aspect of your life.


When you make a mistake, you cant go back- only forward.
But you can live in the past, instead of the future.
mistakes have the power to turn you into something better than before.
‘ive learnt so much from my mistakes- I’m thinking of making more’
Mistakes teach us there are limits, and not just that we shouldn’t do something again, WHY we shouldn’t do something again.

‘There is always ONE stupid mistake which changes everything’ <– tbh, this is just so true.
why is it that people dismiss all the great things about you and allow ONE bad thing to override it, and THAT to define you?

its weird for someone to say they’ve never made a mistake- because everyone has. and like… maybe if someone says that they haven’t made a mistake (which is extremely weird in itself) they haven’t had the growth mindset to acknowledge their mistakes!

You shouldn’t waste time grieving over past mistakes. learn from them and live on, cause if you don’t; no one else will.
everyone makes mistakes in their life, that doesn’t mean they have to pay for them for the rest of their life.
mistakes don’t dictate where you’re headed, they remind you.

People wont know that youve changed or that youre a better person, but why does the opinion of ‘judgemental’ people affect you? i mean, it does, and i know it does- but why does it?
people who don’t know the real ‘you’, and that you are FAR beyond just your mistakes- dont deserve your attention, or to be thought about.

Sometimes we are forcefully connected to people who don’t give us gratitude or happy kinda vibes, or people who don’t give you peace of mind. these people could just have a slot in your life and you just cant get them out- this could be a classmate, or a toxic family member, nevertheless these people shouldn’t be allowed to put you down to their level, and you should stay strong because… just stay strong πŸ™‚

Dont allow people to bring you down because of your mistakes. the past doesnt define you, your present does. even if you committed a mistake so recently that doesnt mean you couldnt have changed, or that you dont regret what you did.

‘dont let your mistakes define you. its ok to fall down or accidentally trip someone down. life is a journey, till then, drink it up, trip yourself down but always remember to rise when you fall’
‘the past doesnt define you, your present does. its okay to create a version of the future, because it affects your behaviour of the “now” but dont dwell on past mistakes. learn from them and focus those lessons on the moment. thats where change can really happen’

i hope this post was informational and helpful to everyone, thank you soooooo much for reading :))
also credits to those who i quoted


no one leads a perfect life

so a fun fact about other people is that they will only tell you the highlights to their week, they will only post the highlights of their life to their social media profiles, and it is what it is.
on your social media, you would never post yourself going through a tough time, or post your meltdowns. and neither does anyone else.
but when we scroll down on social media, we compare our meltdowns to other peoples’ highlights. and it shouldn’t work like that.

the truth is. no matter what anyone tells you, they aren’t leading a perfect life with no errors. and if you tell someone ‘if you could rid any problem right now, what would it be?’ we’d all have answers.

we all have bad days. and good days. remember good ones in bad days and forget bad days in good days.

that’s all for now guys.
sorry for not being activeeeeeeeeeeee!

appreciate good times whilst times are good

hey guys and I have finally decided to start posting every single day so as to make up for my inactivity!
I’m soooo sorry but I’ve been busy with school and other stuff in my life I recently haven’t had enough time to blog!
today I’m posting about enjoying good times whilst you have them, and some other stuff.

Exactly one year ago, I was living the best life, September/October 2018 elevate to be the most BEST moments of my entire life. And I really mean that. I was friends with everyone, making new friends, having so much fun and living a pretty legit and mint life.
Back in September I broke up with someone I thought was really special to me, she was one of my really good friends, according to me, but she didn’t think so. She broke up with me over no dispute, she didn’t even want to listen to me, she just broke up with me, and when I see her now, she is living the best life, and I’m not.

Honestly, last year, when things were LITTTT, I kinda didn’t think about it much. I was happy with life and content, but I wasn’t that grateful for my surroundings and my amazing life taking place. And these are just happy memories.

There are people who don’t reminisce on good memories but good health.
There are people who don’t reminisce on good memories but their family.
There are people who don’t reminisce on good memories but a home.
There are people who don’t reminisce on good memories but food and water.
There are people who don’t reminisce on good memories but the will to live.

So maybe we don’t have what we had before. But we still have.

how I would spend a million dollars or pounds/ $Β£ !

hey guys and today im posting about how I would spend 1million dollars, or pounds.
So I know this is TOTALLY random but like, I mean, why not! its kind of a good idea (kind of).
this is pure entertainment. *insert cringe caption here to make people stay which actually makes people go*
Aloha, you’re still here.
Thats good, and oh wait, why are you even reading how I’d spend a million dollars, are you THAT bored?/

so firstly, I would pre-order that new iPhone 11 Pro. I mean lets round that to Β£1000.
Then id buy a whole gaming setup worth around Β£1500.
Then id buy AirPods.
Then id buy a new house.
Then I would buy Armani just joking 1million isnt enough for that :C
I would pay Netflix to put me in ALL their shows and turn me into a superstar so that I would easily turn into a huge icon and I would be so famous earning way more than a million.

and then life’s set. life’s good πŸ™‚

Why Teenagers Need Money and Are Broke

Hey guys, and I just wanted to say sorry for not being the most frequent with the previous posts, I felt as if I kind of lost touch with blogging for around a month, or so.

Now I really wanted to pursue the direction of this blog properly, so im going to be posting around once or twice a week with quality posts! And maybe some easy quickly written ones on the occasion, out of schedule!

Today im posting why teenagers go broke and need money… on an urgent scale.

    Snacks is the PRIME suspect of our money going missing. So firstly, on our ways back from school, we have money, so we might as well… you know, get a drink or a chocolate bar, like every single day (and don’t get me started on the way to school).
  2. The food at home doesn’t meet our desires
    So, the food at home isn’t what we feel like, or in the mood for. I mean, sometimes we feel like a subway orpretzels, or even ordering a pizza- because the frozen ones cooked in the oven can’t meet our desires, either.
  3. Random Apps like vsco
    So we all see necessities in certain apps, such as, for me, I invest in VSCO (which is really cheap!), but that’s just one example. Loads of us spend money on these sorts of apps which kinda adds up.
  4. Shopping for unnecessary items that are, in fact, necessary
    UM So I like buying things my parents see as nonsensical, like washing tape, and a fifth sharpener even though the other ones are in working order. 
  5. If you’re a gamer [then…] you get this point
    Video games are expensive, well the good ones anyway! Games like FIFA and Call of Duty release a new version every year, and I mean, it’s an amazing investment, and an amazing thing to do, buying these games, but not for your bank account, im afraid.
    Plus people like me waste money on V-Bucks :c
  6. [If you’re a girl…] then you invest in makeup! 
    Makeup is literally the best investment ever! Because its YOU!! I love makeup personally, and don’t seem to ever regret the amount of money I spent/continue to spend in its pleasure.

I hope you could relate to a few of the points I made! Be sure to follow and subscribe with your email/s to receive notifications whenever a new post is up in your inbox! 


the effect of being boastful

I haven’t posted in a while… im so sorry guys!
Today’s post is about your effect of being full of yourself on others.

So think about it from your own angle… someone is full of themselves in front of you. How do you feel? How do you respond?

Well firstly, you feel a little bit threatened, and you feel a desire to upgrade your standards, but you also feel a bit arrogant yourself, knowing that someone thinks they’re better than you.

So honestly, when you are arrogant or boastful, you push others in a corner, which they don’t like being in, and they feel almost as if you think no one else’s feelings are important, which you might not think about.

No one likes to admit they’re the slightest bit boastful, but we all tend to be, when we show off, when we put others down, or showcase our excellence.

The best way to show off is put yourself out there and receive credit for what is nice. β€œlook at my new ————β€œ, is an alternative to β€œyour ——–β€˜s are no match for my ————β€œ, unless you know the person wouldn’t mind.

X O X O Marryam

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hey guys! I just wanted to apologise for not actively posting recently. its at the back of my mind to reach 100 followers by the end of august, but I believe I need to be much more consistent.

Anyway today is π“ˆπ‘’π“π’» π“π‘œπ“‹π‘’ π’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž π‘œπ“ƒπ‘’!
Today im going to give you the task of saying ONE thing you absolutely love about yourself, is rare, and is special to you!

feel free to comment below!


she wore a cloak like a hat
she wore a smile like a gun
what you didn’t know was that she was heartbroken and numb
but you still judged her for not wanting to talk
she wasn’t antisocial
she was just worried
that you’d give her your heart
and then take it back again.



I find it quite sad how betrayal is always from those you value or care about.

It’s like, when you care about someone with a passion, and they don’t value it, don’t want it, they don’t care about you.

and I guess, the worst part about betrayal is that its hatred coming from someone you care about.

it was dark

it was dark
it was quiet
the solemn
quiet sound of a heartbeat
a drop of water
a silent tiptoe
a suppressed existence
it was dark
and it was cold
it was the beginning
of a new darkness
but an end to the old
boring darkness
new footstepts
new heartbeats
new tiptoes
new darkness
more to consume.


Naked Urban Decay Skin Shapeshifter Palette Review

hey everyone! today im going to be reviewing the urban decay contour palette, or more professionally known as the naked urban decay skin shapeshifter palette.
There are 3 different shades of contour, 2 different highlights, 1 concealer, 1 brow pomade, and 2 liquid blush (so ill be reviewing in that order πŸ™‚ )

So there is one slightly dark brown shade for edges and the cheekbones. This is FANTASTICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC.C
There is a light brown shade for the whole of your contour, I love this so much!!
And there is a white (like white WHITE) powder to humanise the brown on your skin, which is nice. I think its a setting powder but idk.

Okay so there is a powder highlight, and I think ITS SUPERRRRR!! I really like it and it fits perfectly on your skin!
The liquid highlight is a bit of a thick liquid (ie more of a paste) and is really ideal for a more holographic look.

The concealer has a bit of a thick texture as well, so its not liquid like what you’d need for your eyebrows, more something for your spots idk.

The brow pomade is EXCELLENT… it works really well on brown-black eyebrows and an 100% recommendation to Y’ALLLLLL.

So the baby pink liquid blush is really nice for a cute look
and the red pink pastel blush is good for an outgoing crazy look.

and I think that’s the whole product reviewed!! yay!!

have a great day


Estee Lauder Pure Colour Envy Sculpting Blush Review

I got an Estee Lauder foundation and I’m REALLY FOND OF IT!! VIEW THE FOUNDATION here

Of course you apply primer/concealer/foundation BEFOREHAND and that leads onto … the blush.

So when you’re FR blushing its red, and kinda crazy red, so I got a … you guessed it… kinda crazy pinky red.

This colour looks perfect on EVERY SKIN TONE after application of foundation.

I haven’t particularly tried the Estee Lauder foundation yet, but the blush went EXTREMELY well with my Charlotte Tilbury Hollywood Filter Foundation.

I found the blush, if placed correctly could give you some natural highlight in that gap between your under-eyes and your cheeks which is FANTASTIC.

Overall, I would rate it 10/10 because the colour goes extremely well with everything and it REALLY works!!

mx πŸ™‚

Thought of the day #5 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š 𝒸𝒢𝓃 π’Ήπ‘œ π’Ύπ“‰

Thought of the day #5 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š 𝒸𝒢𝓃 π’Ήπ‘œ 𝒾𝓉




π“‰π‘œπ’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž 𝐼 𝒽𝒢𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝑒 π“‰π’½π‘œπ“Šπ‘”π’½π“‰ 𝓉𝒽𝒢𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒 π’Ύπ“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œ π“Œπ’Άπ“Ž π“‰π‘œ 𝒢𝒸𝒽𝒾𝑒𝓋𝑒 π“Žπ‘œπ“Šπ“‡ π’Ήπ“‡π‘’π’Άπ“‚π“ˆ π‘œπ“‡ π‘”π‘œπ’Άπ“π“ˆ π‘œπ“‰π’½π‘’π“‡ 𝓉𝒽𝒢𝓃 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š π“‡π‘’π’Άπ“π“π“Ž 𝒸𝒢𝓃 π’Ήπ‘œ 𝒾𝓉… π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ π’½π‘œπ“Œ π“Œπ’Ύπ“π“ π“Žπ‘œπ“Š 𝒾𝒻 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓃 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š π’Ήπ‘œπ“ƒπ“‰ 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓋𝑒 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š 𝒸𝒢𝓃




Thought of the day #4 π“Œπ’Άπ“ˆπ“‰π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” π“‰π’Ύπ“‚𝑒

Thought of the day #4 π“Œπ’Άπ“ˆπ“‰π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒




π“‰π‘œπ’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž 𝐼 𝒹𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒹𝑒𝒹 π“‰π‘œ 𝓂𝒢𝓀𝑒 π“‡π‘œπ“Šπ“‰π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘’π“ˆ 𝒢𝓃𝒹 π“ˆπ’Έπ’½π‘’π’Ήπ“Šπ“π‘’π“ˆ π“ˆπ‘œ 𝓉𝒽𝒢𝓉 𝐼 π’Ήπ‘œπ“ƒπ“‰ π“Œπ’Άπ“ˆπ“‰π‘’ π“‚π“Ž 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒. π“π‘œπ“ˆπ“‰ 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 π’Ύπ“ˆ 𝓃𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 π’»π‘œπ“Šπ“ƒπ’Ή 𝒢𝑔𝒢𝒾𝓃 πŸ™‚




thought of the day #3 π“…π‘’π‘œπ“…π“π‘’ π“Œπ’½π‘œ 𝒢𝓇𝑒𝓃’𝓉 π“ƒπ’Ύπ’Έπ‘’

Thought of the day #3 π“…π‘’π‘œπ“…π“π‘’ π“Œπ’½π‘œ 𝒢𝓇𝑒𝓃’𝓉 𝓃𝒾𝒸𝑒




π“‰π‘œπ’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž 𝐼 𝒸𝒢𝓂𝑒 π“‰π‘œ 𝓉𝒽𝑒 π’Έπ‘œπ“ƒπ’Έπ“π“Šπ“ˆπ’Ύπ‘œπ“ƒ 𝓉𝒽𝒢𝓉 𝐼 𝒢𝓂 π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π“‚π’Ύπ“ˆπ“ˆπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” π‘œπ“Šπ“‰ … 𝒾𝒻 π“…π‘’π‘œπ“…π“π‘’ 𝒢𝓇𝑒 π“‡π“Šπ’Ήπ‘’ π“‰π‘œ 𝓂𝑒 π’»π‘œπ“‡ π“ƒπ‘œ π“‡π‘’π’Άπ“ˆπ‘œπ“ƒ, 𝐼’𝓂 π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π“‚π’Ύπ“ˆπ“ˆπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘” π‘œπ“Šπ“‰ π‘œπ“ƒ 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒾𝓇 π’»π“‡π’Ύπ‘’π“ƒπ’Ήπ“ˆπ’½π’Ύπ“…. π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ π“ˆπ’Άπ“Ž π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž π“Œπ‘’π“‡π‘’ 𝓃𝒾𝒸𝑒 π“‰π‘œ 𝓂𝑒, π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž 𝒢𝓇𝑒 π“ˆπ“‰π’Ύπ“π“ π“‡π“Šπ’Ήπ‘’ π“‰π‘œ π‘œπ“‰π’½π‘’π“‡ π“…π‘’π‘œπ“…π“π‘’ π“Œπ’½π‘œ π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž π’Ήπ‘œπ“ƒ’𝓉 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓃 π“€π“ƒπ‘œπ“Œ!




Thought of the day #2 π“€π’Ύπ“ƒπ’Ήπ“ƒπ‘’π“ˆπ“ˆ

Thought of the day #2 π“€π’Ύπ“ƒπ’Ήπ“ƒπ‘’π“ˆπ“ˆ




π“‰π‘œπ’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž 𝐼 𝒻𝑒𝓁𝓉 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝒷𝑒𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑒𝓍𝓉𝓇𝒢 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝒹 π“‰π‘œ π“‰π’½π‘œπ“ˆπ‘’ π“Œπ’½π‘œ 𝒢𝓇𝑒 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝒹 π“‰π‘œ 𝓂𝑒, π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ 𝒾𝒻 π“Žπ‘œπ“Š 𝒢𝓇𝑒 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝒹 π“‰π‘œ π“ˆπ‘œπ“‚π‘’π‘œπ“ƒπ‘’, π“‰π’½π‘’π“Ž π“Œπ’Ύπ“π“ π’Άπ“π“Œπ’Άπ“Žπ“ˆ 𝒷𝑒 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝒢𝒸𝓀




Thought of the day #1 π‘”π“‡π’Άπ“‰π’Ύπ“‰π“Šπ’Ήπ‘’

Thought of the day #1 π‘”π“‡π’Άπ“‰π’Ύπ“‰π“Šπ’Ήπ‘’




π“‰π‘œπ’Ήπ’Άπ“Ž 𝐼 𝒢𝓂 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔 π‘”π“‡π’Άπ“‰π‘’π’»π“Šπ“ π’·π‘’π’Έπ’Άπ“Šπ“ˆπ‘’ 𝐼 𝒢𝓂 π’½π’Άπ“…π“…π“Ž 𝐼 𝒽𝒢𝓋𝑒 𝒢 π’½π‘œπ“‚π‘’, 𝒢 π’»π’Άπ“‚π’Ύπ“π“Ž, 𝒢𝓃 π‘’π’Ήπ“Šπ’Έπ’Άπ“‰π’Ύπ‘œπ“ƒ 𝒢𝓃𝒹 π“π‘œπ“‹π‘’ π’»π“‡π‘œπ“‚ π‘’π“‹π‘’π“‡π“Žπ‘œπ“ƒπ‘’ π’Άπ“‡π‘œπ“Šπ“ƒπ’Ή 𝓂𝑒.




conquering my fear of heights

hey guys so today I’m talking about my extreme fear of heights.
When I was young, around 1 years old, I had an extreme fear of looking down from a chair. Obviously, I no longer do, because im taller than a chair, and im at peace… but this is an example of my fear from when I was really young.

Nowadays I go on rollercoasters that are flipping HIGH and Im not scared… until im that high.

Its hard to explain but going up isn’t hard, its just when you look down, and see how people look like tiny dots and there are thousands of miniature objects which were huge down there… and it was kinda scary because then the rollercoaster swings and you’re flying so fast in the air…

so I found conquering my fear of heights IN ROLLERCOASTERS really hard! but here are some things that encouraged me:
1) THOUSANDS/ MILLIONS of people have been here… done this… they’re alive! (excuse the ‘smiler’ from ‘alton towers’, please.)
2)You’re strapped on! You’re okay!
3) uno I kinda wanna say… ITS SAFE! TESTED!

and thats just about it!


its hard to give someone importance when they’re not giving it back to you AND THEY ARE IMPORTANT TO YOU!!

its like youre making time for them.. and they just think youre free all this time.

and when you make someone feel important they dont appreciate it.

they ignore your texts

they tell you ‘I didn’t have time to reply’

but how can you really not have the time to say “hey how’s life what’s been happening?”

people dont think I realise. because I dont say anything. but I do. I really do. and it hurts. because I gave you space in my heart. and I have to fight for a spot in yours?

spoiler, we all die in the end.

this is a famous quote by Atticus.

” spoiler, we all die in the end.” can be taken in two ways.

  1. There is no point working hard. everything we work for will be pointless and fade away one day. we should give up now.
  2. you only live once. live it all, and don’t worry.

Nevertheless, the quote shows us that everything must come to an end. And that at the end of something, something else begins.

Marry XOX


thanks for the likes and follows I got from my recent post! (nearly at 70 follows and the 40 likes! really appreciate it <3)

its kind of weird how everyone wants to really put their input on the world.

today I’m talking about others perception of you.

there is no truth. there is only perception.

when you look at someone, you don’t think about what they’re really like, you think about what YOU think they’re really like.
and it works the other way round, too.

see, if someone sees you in an argument and you’re being really rude to someone (who deserves it), a person observing will perceive you as rude, because they dont know that the person deserves it.

We only know what we see, and we’re told.

Perception is real even when its not reality.

Perception is what others think of you.

Now you can choose to care, or not to, but that is your personal choice. And this is the way the world works. based on opinions, not facts.

your personal outlooks πŸŒŽ

hey guys and today im talking about you changing the world.
We all have a hamartia (personal weakness) and we all have great things about us.
we all have views and aspects.
we all have choices and decisions we want others to respect.
we all have a past and have made mistakes.
and we all have a personal outlook we want others to undertake, regard and apprehend.

but what makes us differ is how we choose to do that.

Views are not physical objects that can be passed around, shared and forced into someones thoughts. (of course you can pretend to respect and approve of a view but that doesn’t necessarily mean you like it, or have any regard to it).

I hope you found this short piece informational and if you didn’t I don’t really care so its fine

bye marry xxxx

mislead someone

I kind of made a friend. we got close. and stuff. and one day we had an argument. and she told me ‘just because we talk a lot doesn’t mean we’re friends’. that kind of broke my heart and cleared me from thinking anyone was my friend when I was unsure if they really were or if they weren’t.

So I met some other people, a few others. And we got close. made jokes. had fun together. just like I did with the previous person. but this time I couldn’t call them my friend. I couldn’t rely on their response. so I asked one of them ‘are we friends?’ because I’m always that person , I have to ask you if you’re my friend, its not the other way round. its what im like. So I asked her, and she told me ‘what do you think….? that I would do all this stuff with you and we’re not friends?’ and that kind of made sense.

Dont mislead someone that they’re important to you and that you like them when youre only going to break their heart. It will hurt more after you’ve made them think you like them, than when you weren’t even friends.

peace ✌️


you lead me on..

So the cruel truth appears and you’re yet, broken hearted? How naive have you been, thinking people don’t lie? Thinking you were really important, thinking you weren’t just a person like everyone else? In fact, how dare you, it’s your fault you liked me, not mine, not that I didn’t encourage it, but still, it’s all your fault for taking it too far.

These kind of situations happen far too much. It’s more like ‘its your fault for being so obsessed darling’ which is something we can all agree on, at least. But then there’s a stop. You encouraged me, and KNEW I was beginning to befriend you, beginning to like you (as a friend) and you just played around, deciding to ditch me when you were bored.

If you don’t like someone or find them annoying, don’t mislead them to think you think they’re exciting and fun and interesting and you like them, when you really don’t. Because the truth will hurt more then, than it will if you told them before.

That’s all I have to say

Marry xx

Studying Tips ✨productivity

Ummmmmmm im not that straight A** kid butttttttttttttttttttttttt I guess I have a few uhhhhhh ‘pass’ tips..
for when youre studying, learning or revising.

  1. Flashcards
    So, writing is not the way through, we have too little time, too many thing to do, and there is just too much on our plate.
    Summarise your class notes on little squares of paper, including only things of relevance.
    e.g If you are studying a math topic, just write the formula and maybe a step by step but no examples etc.
    this will be easy to skim through and quickly pick up everything from any previous lessons.
    Another tip is.. well that leads us on to the next one
  2. Colour
    so colour is the key in ANYTHING! Get multicoloured pens, there are different shades of blue, there is black, purple, (do I really need to list the colours??) write your notes in different colours as a colour code.
    eg. purple for key words
    black for examples
    blue for explanations
    green for normal writing
    this will also help you when you go through your notes, to quickly skim and read whats relevant to what you need to know.
  3. Have a nice studying situation
    I like being next to a window and the beautiful sunnnn,,,!!
    Another one of my favourite things to do is have ANY SNACKS you’ll need to survive the studying situation
    some crisps will finish quickly, so try cookies and maybe some water or any other drink
    if you have a nice study space it won’t be that difficult to study!
  4. Focus Focus Focus
    from someone who enjoys listening to things whilst studying, I feel as though my attention goes more to singing along, or putting on a different playlist, switching it up, and basically im not attentive to my education, but rather satisfying it.
    I would recommend setting up a peaceful playlist which you won’t need to amend, and that you won’t start singing along to, instead of actually doing your studies.
    also there are algebraic songs and much more things like that available to learn whilst you are learning lol
  5. Explore the world of studying
    If youre struggling with a topic, then google it, although it is hard to google ‘Perry has a glass tank of 3cm by 3cm by 3cm what is the volume?’ try to learn the topic, in this case, volume (lol ik its obvious but I sometimes forget that).
    Some websites, for example, BBC Bitesize, offer the whole syllabus of Secondary, Primary, and more, so you can definitely find what you need there.

I hope you guys gathered a bit of studying tips revolving around the productive side.
should be posting more of this stuff soooooooooooonnnnnnnnnn xooooo


3 things to know when people dont like you for no reason | for NXZ

nxz is one of the best friends I’ve ever had and ive always confided in her and trusted her with practically everything and anything.
recently nxz has been going through a hard time and I wanted to write something in recognition of that.
1. You’re so much better than that
If people dont like you, dont beg for someone to like you, or cry about it, its their loss at the end of the day, they’re missing out on YOUR AMAZING PERSONALITY BEING PRESENT and you’re so much better than them for not doing what they’re doing back xo
2. If youre left out
and if you’re feeling left out.. then consider… doing something better, show them you aren’t feeling left out even if you are.. and go on ur phone, talk to ANYONE or even sleep..
3. If youre feeling like no one likes you
and somehow you will need to admit how you feel to all these people instead of bottling it all up

Much love,
for NXZ,
I love you with all my heart
Marryx xx